In 2015 I went thru one of the hardest times of my life. Yes just one of the hardest, because in my 30 something years of existence, it wasn't the only event that shattered my life into pieces. Growing up I had my fair share of difficulties in almost all aspects of my life. But what doesn't kill you always makes you stronger right?
It took me some time to go thru the grieving process. I actually took my time and not hurriedly went thru every phase. And the aftermath is that I have come out of that road block renewed - stronger, stable, content and joyful. Yes not just happy, because happiness is based on events but joy is something deeper.
This year I met a lot of people and I mean A LOT who shared their lives with me leaving both and good life lessons. I became more sociable than I was before. This was thru attending a great number of events related with blogging. There is Zomato Philippines, Team Aldous and all the other PRs that introduced me to a lot of people from all walks of life. I met new acquaintances and gained new friends. All of sudden my social network increased by heaps and I realized there's really more to life than what I thought I already had. I am looking forward to more blogging and non-blogging events and activities with these people.
At the start of the year, work was a bit like passing thru a needle hole because I had to adjust to a new environment and new process. At first I told myself I would distance myself to people around me at work and just focus on work itself. But that didn't turn out good. Isolation wasn't the key. So I hammered down the walls I built around me and started mingling. It wasn't surprising that work didn't feel like work anymore. It became lighter because the people that surrounded me tried their best to make the work place a fun place to be. We always joke around, we eat out and do activities outside work. Slowly I know this will grow into something that will feel like family. I used to drag myself to work but having my workmates around I find going to work every day as something that I look forward to. There hasn’t been a day at work that I did not experience a good laugh.
I have set and written down a lot of goals for this year. Sadly many of them I was not able to achieve. But I am not frustrated like how I used to get frustrated. I am taking one step at a time and learning the virtue of patience. Because I know if something is meant for me to do or to have, God will make it possible. And if not, I know I will be directed to something way better. I still feel down once in a while but now I know how to shrug it off and veer my attention to things that are positive.
This year I gained and lost people. I met some that I thought would stay in my life for years and some who I thought I would never get along with or see again, yet they stayed. I am thankful to all of them either way, because both who stayed and left imparted in me something that made me who I am at this very moment in my life. I am also very thankful of the friends that I've kept all through these years. Friends who beyond distance and time, friends who I don't get to talk to everyday, yet remained the best and truest friends I will ever have in my life. I couldn't ask for more, they are going to be my forever persons and I am truly blessed for having them.
As for the concerns of the heart, I met two persons this year that really made such huge impacts in my life. The one with the Cerulean blues is someone I can't seem to put in the far corners of my mind. We had this incredible connection, we could talk about everything and I mean everything under the sun. A simple topic can take hours and branches out to other topics. He is a very good conversationalist. We also both made each other laugh every time. He poured his soul to me and me to him. I have made a checklist or criteria of the next man I want to fall for and he fits in most, if not all, of the criteria. Simply put, he's everything I ever wanted since I started daydreaming for my knight in shining armor. He gave me all the feels. Up to this day whenever he crosses my mind I can't help but smile. He was what I exactly needed at that time in my life. This might sound cheesy but I am not shy to say that he is the one who healed me of my worst heartbreak. But something couldn't make it possible for us to take it to the next level, he's from the other side of the world, thousands of miles across the Pacific. I lost him but I never felt sad, heartbroken or bitter. I just can’t. His role in my life is great that it left nothing but good memories. I don’t know if I’ll ever cross paths with him again in the future, maybe yes, may be no. But he’s someone I will forever cherish. He gave me the courage to say hello and taught me to stretch this heart beyond what I knew possible. I thank God I met him and even though it lasted shorter than the winter sun, it meant a lot to me.
And then there’s this with the Hazel colored eyes. He never fit my type, he was somehow almost the opposite of someone that I would like. I’ve never went out with anyone like him. But there’s something in him that draw me in. He was the most straightforward person I’ve ever known. He brought out something in me that I never knew was there all along. He reinforced my want to be a person who takes risks, who doesn’t give a single drop of care of what people will say, who dives right into a situation without any regrets. It was an adventure with him, a journey of self-rediscovery. He bended what I believed in and followed most of my life. We have this something that is unexplainable and doesn’t need any labeling or future plans. Being the planner that I am, I want things to be always be routed out, but he unconsciously changed that attitude of mine. With him I was just living in the moment, no past or future, just the present. I am also always tired but never of him. What will become of him and me, I still don’t know. But whatever it’ll turn out to be, being the new person that I am, whether if it is gonna be good or bad, I know I will be OK.
And lastly, I am thankful that I got to travel out of the country this year. I usually travel twice a year, and I thought I wouldn't be able to do it this year. I was supposed to go to Bangkok and Cambodia with my college friends after one of my best friend’s wedding. That got rescheduled because of some unfortunate event in her family. So it was last minute and very impulsive, but I said what the heck. I booked a flight with my other college friends to go to HK and Macau. I never regretted that decision. I had one of the best times of life, crossed out a few on my bucket list (I got to see a panda in person btw hehe). Also, I needed that trip so badly after working straight for a few months and for my future goals of migrating abroad. I believe it will be a start of the so many firsts with regards to my travel goals.
This year has taught me a lot especially about being more patient, open-minded, sociable, risky, positive, grateful, appreciative and accepting things as they are. I am thankful for all the people that came in and out of my life this year. Now I can agree that everyone you meet will leave with you a lesson or two. Now it’s up to you how you will take it and use it.
Cheers to the #BestOf2016 and like every time a new year rings in, I get excited. So here me out 2017, I’m ready for you, so bring it on!
How about you guys? How was your 2016 and who or what are you guys thankful for? #AirAsiaPH #ThankYou
How about you guys? How was your 2016 and who or what are you guys thankful for? #AirAsiaPH #ThankYou
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